I’ve noticed this about myself before, multiple times: I tend to be loyal to the apps, software, tools I use whether or not those things are actually working for me.

It’s a misplaced loyalty, and maybe it’s because I feel so often that I think I’ve found the one - and then when it turns out that the one is not the one, after all, I don’t want to admit it? Like it’s some grievous error. Or this: I felt such clarity and depth of ‘rightness’ about this particular tool, surely I wasn’t wrong. Surely, this tool is the one that solves my problems, makes me focused, eliminates hassle, elevates me to some productivity-zen level of being…

And it turns out this little psychological deviance isn’t limited to tools at all, is it?

The misplaced loyalty extends into a lot of other areas.

It seems to come from our mythologies about salvation: I’ll be saved from my sins by a Messiah. I’ll be saved from my loneliness when I meet my soulmate. I’ll be saved from insecurity when I get enough money. I’ll be saved from self-doubt when I achieve one more thing….

Reminds me of this line from Marcus:

If your well-being matters to you, be your own savior while you can.